Wednesday, June 20, 2012

The Pros of being a Daughter

I never realized how lucky I am to be born a girl and not a boy till ... just about now.
Being a good daughter, you're never suppose to mouth off to your parents. I did it once when I was younger... and I got into a lot of trouble.

Today, I was preparing an activity that I was going to use for my summer camp kids. All night, my mom, as been "giving" her "suggestions" on how this activity should be done.... properly. I keep telling her I know... and explaining to her the reasons for doing why I was doing what I was doing. For example, I was telling my mom that I'm going to set up various stations... my mom "suggested" that I scrap the idea of stations, and just do everything all at once. I then proceed to tell my mom that I needed to prolong the activity, so it'll take up the rest of the afternoon. My mom shrugs and continues to question my other procedures.

"Why are you doing that?", "Why don't you do this?", "I don't understand this...", "Have you emailed XXX yet?"
On and on for over 2 hours... in response I would say things like... "please! just have a little faith in me!", "i know what i'm doing."

With my craft supplies covered hands, my mom makes one more request of me, "you know you should send that email to XXX now"... and on the inside.. i'm pissed as hell. Then my dad decides its the right time to ask me, "What on earth are you doing right now?" That, being the straw that breaks my back, caused me lash out with, "JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE! GOD!" and i storm down into our basement to clean up the messy tools i've just used. My mom, who thinks that she's got the best people skills chip in with a, "oh, your dad is just curious, why are you so sensitive."

And being the me, who's lost my cool, I yell back, "you've been on my ass all night. PLEASE HAVE A LITTLE FAITH IN ME!"

If I was a boy or if i was any younger, I'm sure I would have gotten an ass whopping. But seeing i'm on adult now... and i think my dad thinks i might be pms-ing... i got away with it.

I count that as a win any day

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Holy Crap! I'm old O_o

I recently had a birthday. Didn't really do much... didn't plan much.. and to be honest, I had no intention of planning anything either...
But I did get some pretty awesome swag!!

It was a tardis themed day... maybe it's a sign... the Doctor is going to turn back time for me!

a tardis t-shirt, a tardis to play with, a tardis notebook! well the laptop wasn't really tardis themed.. but I pimped it out with a simple tardis wallpaper!

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Letters I would never send #4

Hey you,

I was rereading your letter. I don't wanna go either. I wish life was more like how we want it to be.  I wish we got what we want, and what we want right now is the opposite of whats happening now. Life sucks load sometimes.


Moroccan adventures

To celebrate my birthday, my friend took me to a Moroccan restaurant.
Lamb tangine (?)

beef skewer

mint tea.. =.= lol, you have to drink that stuff

Traditional dessert... (half eaten, cause i forgot to take pictures lol)

And as a side... I have never seen this before... but apparently it goes great with lamb lol
I've had Jordanian food before, but not Northern Africa, so I was more than excited to try.
The restaurant was designed interestingly. The sitting area was like inside a tent... kinda dark, but really cool, and the food wasn't too bad.

Saturday, June 2, 2012


Dear coleslaw,

I love you. Please don't ever leave me.

That is all

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

I was wrong....

How strange it is. Last night, I was still basking in the happiness of my glasses, and hanging with good friends. 24hrs later, I'm upset because, I was wrong about someone.

I thought that by now, I've grasped on how to judge people. And I was wrong.

In the past two weeks, I've finally be able to admit that Firstly, I can no longer trust one of my supposedly close friends, since she's been telling people the secrets which I share with her. Secondly, a person who I thought I could be good friends with, has changed, and today I received my slap-in-the-face reality check. Though I thought we could have been good friends, I eventually grew to dislike/hate her. I guess deep inside I was hoping she would go back and change back into the person that I thought I liked, and today I found out that, that was never going to happen. Ever.

I just feel that over the course of 2 weeks, the relationships that I had tried to built with other people, the people that I had opened up to, was gone. And there is no point in salvaging them. As much as I didn't like these people, I find myself very upset at whats happening. Partly due to, having built a social identity that I've wanted, taken away from me. And me also questioning why I can't seem to keep a relationship. Because it's happening to me so many times, it can't be other people's fault (though I might try telling myself that), but could it be my fault? Am I not able to keep a nice long relationship with people because there's something socially wrong with me?

I think I'm upset because I thought I knew people better, but I was wrong.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

I wear my sunglasses @ night

I've been wearing glasses since I was in grade 6, and since gr 8, I've been wishing I could wear sunglasses.
I've tried various clip-ons, but I didn't like them.
Then 2 weeks ago, my parents suggested that I get "custom" (OR! prescription) sunglasses, since I've been bothering them about giving me contacts, so I can wear proper sunglasses.
When I hear this I got super excited. I had to wait another week, so my sister could help me pick a set of frames, and then one more week before I could get them.
By the time I got this today, it was nearing evening and there was a lack of sun. BUT it didn't stop me!
I've been wearing them basically all day, when I can lol.

Here's hoping for good sunny weather tmr!

my new shades baby!