Tuesday, May 29, 2012

I was wrong....

How strange it is. Last night, I was still basking in the happiness of my glasses, and hanging with good friends. 24hrs later, I'm upset because, I was wrong about someone.

I thought that by now, I've grasped on how to judge people. And I was wrong.

In the past two weeks, I've finally be able to admit that Firstly, I can no longer trust one of my supposedly close friends, since she's been telling people the secrets which I share with her. Secondly, a person who I thought I could be good friends with, has changed, and today I received my slap-in-the-face reality check. Though I thought we could have been good friends, I eventually grew to dislike/hate her. I guess deep inside I was hoping she would go back and change back into the person that I thought I liked, and today I found out that, that was never going to happen. Ever.

I just feel that over the course of 2 weeks, the relationships that I had tried to built with other people, the people that I had opened up to, was gone. And there is no point in salvaging them. As much as I didn't like these people, I find myself very upset at whats happening. Partly due to, having built a social identity that I've wanted, taken away from me. And me also questioning why I can't seem to keep a relationship. Because it's happening to me so many times, it can't be other people's fault (though I might try telling myself that), but could it be my fault? Am I not able to keep a nice long relationship with people because there's something socially wrong with me?

I think I'm upset because I thought I knew people better, but I was wrong.

1 comment:

  1. Don't ever let people make you feel less than you are worth. You are staying true to yourself and if that's what drives people away, let it be. Don't change for someone else, if you ever are gonna change, do it for yourself. It is sad to see close friends leave, but if that's what it takes to stay true to your identity. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger (;