Tv disappointments

Over the weekend, I was able to catch a show which was originally aired overseas, which made me very angry at Asian culture and asian society.

The idea of the show, was the take 5 different women, of various social classes, and help them "improve" themselves so they would be able to find a husband to settle with.

At first I was skeptical, maybe it might actually be informative, maybe it might teach me something... MAYBE...
I'm sad to say that it didn't happen. Though the series is only 10 episodes long, I had to leave the room halfway through the 3 episode. And i'm glad to say that i don't regret it. These so called "life coaches", and "specialists" (such as "specialist" in understanding how men think, how to "look prettier"... pffft)are filled with a bunch of BS!

One of the girls who was in her mid to late 20s, was told that she was "too aggressive" and that men like women who are passive. Another was told that she needed to get plastic surgery. An older lady, was told that because of her age (early 40s), she'd need to change and alter her standards in looking for someone to spend the rest of her life with, cause no one wants to be with a lady within her age range. In general, the girls were also told to not at that smart... because it'll make a man feel inferior, and that's not going to help you find a man....

I guess what angers me the most, was when one of the specialist was teaching the girls  how to "interact with a man via txt" (aka, flirt) [fyi, if you're interested... when replying txts, reply with fewer characters than what they send you, make sure you are never the last person to send a txt out, and Never EVER be the one that initiates outings]. My mother looked at me, and said, you could get pointers on this.


My reaction was.. WTF?!?!?! if a person watches enough tv... we will know what "the rules" are, and even then, they might not be right. second, this has nothing to do, with improving yourself to make yourself a better person, in hopes of meeting a nice boy to spend the rest of your life with.


WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO?

I don't have a conclusion for this. I'm VERY DISAPPOINTED and still VERY ANGRY.
Think of what you may......

The show is called, Bride Wannabes or 盛女愛作戰 .. and it's produced by TVB
Synopsis:
The 'Ladies Left Behind' (Sing Lui) is a serious problem in Hong Kong. Five single Hong Kong women -- Gobby, Suki, Bonnie, Mandy and Florence -- are still single due to all kinds of reasons and are extremely longing for true love. Within 6 months, a group of experts assist them by giving them a huge makeover as well as be their gender relation consultant, so they have the skills to attract the opposite sex. Finally, a matchmaker will help them find a partner. The five ladies will do whatever they can to meet, attract and pursue men in order to create future happiness for themselves and find their Mr. Right.

It's been a long day

i've had a long bad day.
I hope everyone has had a better one than me....
in case you didn't... i hope this makes you feel better

Rant of the New year....

so... a new school year is starting up in North America... and no... i am not looking forward to it...
nothing says new year like a rant! are you ready for it?

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Why is it so hard to grow up?
why can't parents just leave their child alone and let them try things on their own? mines are constantly stuffing down my neck asking me, what i plan to do with my life...
the mentor i grew up with told me to not worry about, she spent a whole year moping around the house and doing random part times before she was able to come up with her career choice...
i wish my parents will let me do that...

i have self assess that i like to create dramas for myself to hide myself from real life... it's like my escape, ( I use to do that a lot when I was a kid, only it weren't dramas.. they were more like alternate realities :)... yeah they were good times...)and now... because i'm older it's like my imagination has failed me...

And the fact that my best friend is moving to another city isn't really pleasant..you'd think one's parents would understand the "trauma" going through my mind right now...(it's traumatic because she's moving and we haven't been able to spend any time together... at all) and yet.. my parents are giving me even more restrictions! I would like to know who's the inconsiderate one...

My mom tries to justify that she's asking me all these questions all at one cause she's too busy with her jobs to try and understand my life as it's happening... Honestly, I'd sometimes wish she would just not care... she has no idea how much stress she's putting me under... i could elaborate on this.. but we all know that one post is not going to help me with years of needed therapy....

"Life was so much easier when your clothes didn't match and boys had cooties!"
---Unknown

*sigh*

I think I'm going through a slight withdrawal right now.
I love everyone who is here at home, however, a good chunk of my friends are in Jordan, on an archaeological dig.
I really wish I went with them, I truly enjoy digging and travelling, however, as most things in life, financial problems are preventing that from happening.

Do I regret not going? of Course!
Will I get over it? Probably, but it'll take a while.

Ii'm going to try to keep myself occupied, by working hard on my summer job, and also looking for a trip for me to take part in......

I can only hope that there's more in store for this summer for me.

i can't stand...

i can't stand those who take things for granted. they don't appreciate what others do for them.
they sit there, and ppl have to beg for their attention just to do the simple things everyone else is SUPPOSE to.

please get off your sorry ass and do some work,
the more i see you, the more i lose respect for you

essays

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Distractions...

Sorry I haven't been able to update, but life has been a major distract right now.

Almost every day I end up feeling very drained, so I haven't been able to do things that I. One being updating this blog....

I Promise i'll update as soon as i can.

Stay back outsiders!

ok, so the title was kinda mean, but this rant needs a title like this!

Today this dude on the radio was saying how Chinglish is important to study and we should try to preserve it.

let's refresh everyone's memory on what most chinglish looks like.

do you really want to keep this around? really preserve it? No.

Chinglish has always been something for overseas chinese youth have. it's a lanuage that we, the oversea chinese youth, use when we have a lack of Chinese, trying to communicate, and can only translate from english into really weird chinese sentences.

the dude was talking about how they should keep things like..

"please don't kill the little beings under your feet"

or something like that.. it's suppose to mean "please keep off the grass"

... seriously? he's all like.. oh, we should keep the chinese to english cause it shows an insight into the chinese culture and how they're so much more connected to nature.

how stereotypical is that?

i would also like to add that it's a 100% german dude saying this.

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long time no see

wow, i guess i sure haven't posted here in a long time.

soo much has happened this past week.

aside from the obviously and the traumatic (more on that another time.. )

there's also been the lingering doom of exams.

YES! ladies and gentleman, it's that time of the year again~ the time were everyone starts to find god, whether they start asking for favors or just plain cursing him (or her.. however you roll),

i personally favour, the "why did i take the course" curse and then the night before the exam, the "please help me get a good mark" prayer.. lol

*sigh* so many things to do, so little time. i can't..CANNOT wait till my exam week is over, then... i've got big plans.. lol

ps i would like to add that i am trapped totally distracted from trying to do study for my exam in like 2 days.. i would like to think of it as... being a prisoner of my own mind...

It's official

It's official,
i've had my first breakdown and it even surprised me..
i was doing a lab report, and there was a question that i couldn't answer...
i asked my parents and no one could give me an answer...
that's when the helpless-ness starting.. i couldn't help it.. i just felt like i was screwed...
so i sat there an cried for a good 15 mins before i relaized that i was wasting time...

so... i have a midterm tmr.. a lab report due the day after that.. and a quiz the day after that.. (nope i havent started to study)... not to mention the small minded upper class, whitewashed classmates that i have to work on my project with...

it's only a matter of time before i fall to pieces...


*you know there's something wrong, when a person doesn't have the time to bitch about how they hate school, without thinking that the time wasted could be better spent on homework... *

it's the first one...

gag.. ><
it's the first hump of the school year.. ><
the part where i hate school and i can't believe i have to put up with this.. ><
seeing my schedule for next week, makes me want to go and die in a whole..
i basically have one thing due after the next.. ><
and the fact that i have a midterm on Wednesday doesn't help


i hate school... ><



“School is like a lollipop. It sucks until it is gone.”

“I never learned hate at home, or shame. I had to go to school for that.”

LIFE's NOT FAIR

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Life sucks..
grr... so much to do.. i want to like stab the dude that invented hmk..

i guess i'm so upset right now..
i'm...

speechless..

Well that was a waste of time....

so i'm helping out with a school research project.
and what happened was that i decided to ask one of my old high school teachers,
to see if he was a suitable person to fit the subjects that we're looking for..
it's been about a couple of weeks and i haven't heard back from him.
i finally get my sister who goes to that school, and ask him if he at least get
my email...
turns out that he did get my messages but weren't very comfortable about answering my questions...
which is fine..
but.. till now he still hasn't at least messaged me back saying that he's not interested.

i mean thank god i wasn't relying on his data, but he could have at least TOLD me not to wait for his response.. >>

mixed emotions p2

ah, i haven't written here in a long~ time... but a list of mixed feelings are coming up

- school is finally done.. er.. done to the point where i don't have to attend classes.. but there are still those... umm.. oh yeah exams.. >>

- i feel really guilty for what i did over the weekend.. though it's not totally my fault exactly... i got mad at my parents cause they promised me that they were going to do sumthing...and plans didn't go as planned. it was a pretty bad day, especially since both parents were displaying emotions of annoyance and tiredness, it really loses your interest. but of course being the emotional brat that i am, the following evening and day... i made my upset and displeasure quite clear to them. So, now they know that i'm upset and they're trying hard to make it up to me ... but... i don't know why, but it just doesn't feel the same .....

- i'm afraid. i'm afraid of failure. this is sadly one of the few things that prevent me from sleeping at night.. and as june draws closer... that pit at the bottom of my stomach, the one that appears just before i fall asleep, is starting to grow. it's sad to say that i can feel my insides drop to the floor... sometimes.. i feel just so lost....

the final mile...

i'm almost done the f-ing esaay... i can see the end of it.. but why is finishing it up so hard.. ><
and to be honest no one is really helpful in getting though this hard time...
going to bed at 2... waking up at 830.. *sigh* i swear if i don't get my sleep on friday night.. i swear to god.. i will b***h all day

i can't wait for all of this to be over...

why is the last couple of steps always the hardest?
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ps i hope that no one is got that messed up virus yesterday... i personally think it might have been an April Fool's prank... but still.. i was so scared.. lol

A Mess of Emotions... ><

Have you ever gotten an huge empty feeling in your stomach? Like a huge pit that emerges form nowhere and then it grows until you feel sick? all of this happening in a mere couple of seconds....
eg, you think you're done for the weekend.. then you look at your list of things to do and realize that you have an essay due in three days and you haven't even started it...

that's not exactly what happened to me.. but.. it was no doubt something that i wish i had paid more attention to in the past ><
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on a more immature note, was in a slight disagreement with a family member... i guess maybe uni has made me a more stressed out, unable to "handle jokes" type of a person and i'm not suppose to take life too seriously.. >>
i don't think that is what's happening to me.. but you can't balme me for what society had made me into. I'm stressed out and have to take everything seriously cuase this is how the darn capitalist society works!! i have to be able to constantly strive to be ahead... *sigh*

Along with this comes with a ranting of old ladies!! or at least those in their midlife crisis...
Please don't listen to everything that your "friends" say... just becuase one person said that X is a good product means you have to do and buy it... furthermore... i can tell you that people like that are not going to share ... so don't whine about them not sharing with you when you know that they're not going to in the first place... i mean isn't this one of those rules being taught to kids since they were little?
*breathes*
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so yeah, that shoutbox is suddenly showing "error" and i have no idea what's wrong with it.. so i went and got a better one.. so everyone spam away ^^
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on a more happier note.. i was able to get a tempory version of the new epik high: map the soul album. and i LOVE it!! espeically the english a version of the title track... i'm having some trouble converting it, but i'll post it once i can....

Monkey doesn't do what Monkey says....

Recently, I was looking at some Anti sites regarding "a specific" group....
and of course such antis were making a huge deal saying that "such members" were totally fakes, since they all have had plastic surgery, none of them are real *in any aspect*... especially when being compared to such and such artists...

when i read that... this got me annoyed, i know that for a fact, the artist which were seen as the role models.. are, if not more, "fake" ie, they are known to have had plastic surgery, and if you claim that a rival group never did, then i challenge you to prove.. i'm pretty sure if people are given the oppertuniy then they will fix what they see as imperfections.... why are people so ignorant in ignoring what's in front of them?

and for the record.. don't they know, the more you hate a group.. the more popular they will get cause you're giving them free publicity?