*sigh*

i was talking to a friend today, and wow did all my messed up emotions come up.
all the years of supressed emotions all came bubbleing up.. and i got a mini self realization of how troubled i am.

all the things that ppl have said to my past started to appear in my head again.
the sad part? ppl don't know that they have said stuff that have hurt me.

All you those who said things about me failing... you can all so screw yourself.
i don't understand how you could all say those things to me. and what's worse... i still consider you a friend. even till this day.
i don't know why i'm more dissappointed in.. my weak will, or the way you act towards me. maybe you think that cuase we're such good friends, we can "have conversations" like this...but man you don't know how much i don't like you.

i feel there are some years that i could have done without. i know there are many years which A LOT of thearpy of still won't be able to fix.

i am one broken bag of troubles waiting to let it all out...
the only problem is... how is it going to come out? easily? or forcefully?