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ever wanted to just dig yourself a hole and just throw yourself into it
close everything around you, forget anything exist and just disappear?

i feel like i'm living on borrowed time right now.. i don't know why...
it feels like everything is failing for me and i'm barely catching up to the events.
i know my problems to many just seem like minor situations.. but for some reason they feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.

i seem to be failing everything that i attempt and failure has never settled well with me.

i'm dying to go to my vacation for my one time to relax, or at least catch up with myself, heck i've been waiting for this vacation to happen for over a year. but there's soo much in my way before i can get to the goal.

i envy the people that can go on a backpacking adventure.. they have no useless worries..
i sometimes wonder... is all that i'm doing really going to have an impact on my life?

it's so stupid cuase i can't help but feel like a total failure....
i really can't stress over how much i hate school right now.. >< i should have never signed up for the course..