How strange it is. Last night, I was still basking in the happiness of my glasses, and hanging with good friends. 24hrs later, I'm upset because, I was wrong about someone.
I thought that by now, I've grasped on how to judge people. And I was wrong.
In the past two weeks, I've finally be able to admit that Firstly, I can no longer trust one of my supposedly close friends, since she's been telling people the secrets which I share with her. Secondly, a person who I thought I could be good friends with, has changed, and today I received my slap-in-the-face reality check. Though I thought we could have been good friends, I eventually grew to dislike/hate her. I guess deep inside I was hoping she would go back and change back into the person that I thought I liked, and today I found out that, that was never going to happen. Ever.
I just feel that over the course of 2 weeks, the relationships that I had tried to built with other people, the people that I had opened up to, was gone. And there is no point in salvaging them. As much as I didn't like these people, I find myself very upset at whats happening. Partly due to, having built a social identity that I've wanted, taken away from me. And me also questioning why I can't seem to keep a relationship. Because it's happening to me so many times, it can't be other people's fault (though I might try telling myself that), but could it be my fault? Am I not able to keep a nice long relationship with people because there's something socially wrong with me?
I think I'm upset because I thought I knew people better, but I was wrong.
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